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Exemption from your personal hells

When I had nothing to lose, I had everything. When I stopped being who I am, I found myself.”
― Paulo Coelho, Eleven Minutes.

*Note: The following may not be applicable to all people, because everyone has had a different past, that is… a rough past. A rough childhood. Of course, innumerable children deal with a list of problems as any average adult, sad but true.I sincerely apologise if this seems like this is a post containing stereotypical content about being problem-free during your childhood. It isn’t, at least from my side. I don’t mean to offend anyboy. The point is, I have a message to convey. I hope you understand.*

When you were a kid, you didn’t let allow yourself to fall into the enslavement of people-pleasing.

You didn’t analyze or justify yourself in  order to feel validated, you didn’t care if people approved your existence and/or your persona.

You were content just the way you were; you cared about your pet goldfish, or your puppy, or your latest toy, or your candy, or your parents (and the list goes on and on). The point is, you found happiness and joy in every little thing that came across your way.

Most of the times, if you didn’t like something, or someone, you thought to yourself, “To hell with it! I’ll go ride my bike or something” and genuinely moved on, instead of letting it bother you to your very core.

Thing is, you loved yourself. You did what you wanted, you spoke what was on your mind without the fear of being judged, about people’s shallow or petty assumptions, about you being a target of gossiping & hot topics, you didn’t always believe the things told to you by others which were both bad and wrong. You didn’t rely and feed on people’s constant approvals and compliments, though you were certainly appreciative of their kindness. You had your own back, you were more fearless and most of all, free of any regrets, at least the huge ones. Let me demonstrate further: you might’ve regretted not bringing your umbrella to school or a day when it rained cats and dogs, or that you didn’t consider bringing an extra pencil to school because you lost the one you had during the moment in school, and needed to write, but had nothing to write with. However, you didn’t regret BIG things, like compromising things specially valuable to you, jeopardising your present and/or future and letting go of something, someone, an oppurtunity to grow in fears of putting everything else that you had ever known of at risk. The fear of failure itself leads to actual failure. Not being prepared to sacrifice a little, or a lot for something your heart beats fast for, and ending up jeopardising a once-in-a-lifetime chance. Maybe you didn’t go for it because you weren’t sure what others thought of you, and what others would think of you and your newly made decision. Maybe you feared their opinions, and hence allowed them to take over your subconsciousness and subsequently your decisions. Therefore, you just weren’t as sure and clear-minded and thereby filled with doubts. Doubts in yourself. Doubts in your capabilities, your gifts.

Yes, life isn’t a bed or roses or a fairytale land either, where everything is easy peasy lemon squeezy; things are going to get harder and harder and you’ll be tested with trials according to your strength, you just never have to doubt it and think you lack anywhere. Know you are capable of moving about freely to hustle hard and make your dreams come true.


When you stop analyzing yourself, trying to find justification within yourself for every move you make, every breath you take, you find wisdom; when you find wisdom, you find a way towards your soul, and that too flawlessly and effortlessly. When you stop worrying about causing someone else’s displeasure just because you chose to do what you HAD to, you achieve a sense of freedom no one can ever steal from you but yourself. When you realise that nothing ever is truly yours, you let go of the fear of losing anything in the first place. Loss simply is an inevitable, and a lot of times a healthy process of life which you learn to accept sooner or later. When you truly realise that time does not wait for anyone, and that it is short yet ample in amount, you will stop waiting for time to always give you chances, and you will stop fully relying on time to heal your wounds. You’ll have your back just like you did once: through innocence, immaturity, learning & growing, through the phase when you were mostly oblivious to the world and through the times when you began to actually see the world. The rough times, the various confusing times and the exhausting times. When you’ll find out that you really are your own person, your own source of love and strength, that is when  you’ll be able to face, communicate and eventually get along with your personal hells. That is when you’ll be able to convert those hells into something less volatile, less violent and less powerful. You’ll exempt yourself from your personal hells.

-Samavia.

 

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The Sky is the limit, really.

“The enormity of this world and the entire Universe is petrifying

the thought of having to struggle after every step is terrifying

the idea of heartbreak, agony and pain is transfixing

but Dear you, how will you get to taste the sweet nectar of life without the hustle and bustle?

How will you get to touch the stars without learning to fly

and how will you learn to fly when you can’t even crawl- let alone run and jump?

How will you witness the opalescent glow of the pearls right in your palms without diving in deep waters?

How will you ever feel the joy and the rush of adrenaline from skydiving without taking the risk of falling?

How will you ever be fully aware of yourself without any heart and stomach wrenching experiences?

Triumph you see, comes from taking steps you don’t want to take

It comes from leaving behind fears and habits that keep you away from success

but you can’t seek the light and achieve the long-awaited success if you disincline to leave the toxicity behind

After all, the enormity of the world is not something you should run or hide from

it is something you must face with brisk optimism

and feel with every fibre of your body in order to be in contact with it

for the sky really is the limit, and once you seize the heart of the Universe

your fear becomes your dream, and your dream becomes your companion.”

-Samavia.

 

 

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Heavy Heart

“The heart you see, has been designated as the organ of love

and the organ of pain for a reason

Each time you suffer, you feel it in your chest

not only does your entire world quake stormily, but you feel your heart shattering

You can feel each and every crack forming at its very surface, and your soul being careened towards the abyss apace

There is nothing that you can do to stop your soul from fading away deep into the darkness of the night, devoid of any stars to guide you back to the light that you had once known

for you are being eaten away from inside by your frailties and your insecurities

The toxicity of heartache is so often taken for granted, if only they knew the ruinous effects it brought along with it

The world is a ruthless place, bound to leave painful imprints on your heart

Imprints which are woeful but nevertheless quite exquisite too

They are embedded there as a lesson, but they haunt much like a poltergeist

that is why the heart feels heavy, the body and mind exhausted and the soul lost.”

-Samavia.

Note: For those of you who have followed my blog and enjoyed reading my blog, thank you for the support,it helps a lot. Also, sincere apologies due to the fact that I had been inactive for THREE months. Not only had I procrastinated when I did have the time, but I was also dealing with some problems of my own, along with a hectic school routine. Stay blessed, I will keep writing and posting more from now!

 

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Gift

Everybody has his or her own gift(s). It does not always have to be something tremendous and colossal, for there is always a monumental blessing in each kind of gift, even if it is about the size of an atom. Even a simple genuine gesture that can help other people in any shape or form, for example a smile, a shoulder to cry on, or a helping hand may mean the entire Universe to someone, anyone. Someone who is desperately in need of comfort and a true friend, or is simply helpless in a situation and may need someone who can somewhat, and somehow release their burdens to a good extent. That one unconditional action filled with passion can make their black holes that suck out their energy and soul evaporate easily, something they never thought would happen. All thanks to you. Not everybody goes an extra mile for others like you do. Sure, everybody can, but not everybody wills to.

Observe yourself. Give yourself time, be yourself, for being yourself is never a crime or a fault. Accept yourself, pour love into yourself, be honest to yourself and be your very own friend. For that too is a gift, even if it is not necessarily a stereotypical talent that tends to impress a wide range audience, it is a gift you give to yourself. Whether it impresses anyone or not, it surely helps you prosper.And yes, it is a gift that will last and help you for a lifetime, you just have to acknowledge it and truly accept it, deep within the core of your heart. That is when your kindness towards everyone and everything in the world will naturally enhance too. You will become softer, more generous, more genuine,

We all certainly have gifts: infinite blessings, talents, skills, endless creativity (each of our kind(s)), and a noteworthy touch to ourselves. It is not always important to rush for them and find them instantly, and it is absolutely not good to dwell over not being able to figure out what makes you different; we are all gifted tremendously and sometimes it is okay to even just reach out for others: other human beings, animals, plants, any being and/or thing that is benefitted thanks to you. You are not incapable or useless, you are gifted, you just need to give yourself a push when you feel you need to bring change, any kind of change.

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Who am I?

“Who am I really?

What am I, beyond the flesh and bones that veil my inner self?

Why do I want to be somewhere else in time?

What purpose do I serve to this vast unknown dimension filled with countless celestial wonders,

when I am so insignificant and negligible while living inside it?

What does my soul actually look like, when I get lost in my own eyes as I stare deep into the mirror?

Does it consist of freshly blossomed flowers, stars, moonlight, sunshine and everything cheerful and lively?

OR does it consist of storms, earthquakes, volcanic eruptions,tsunamis, destructive black holes and supernovas?

What if it is a paradoxical, baffling combination of heaven & hell, and angels & demons?

Can anybody else see through my eyes and find out the beautifully chaotic mess in me?

This world around me, filled with pastel and cosmic colors, glittery night skies and the blinding sunlight

always reminding me of myself, for I reckon these are all the components of my being,

in some way or another, each in its own mysterious, unexplainable manner

and for life is a journey that leads to an unknown destination, I will explore the true meaning of my existence till I die.”

-Samavia.

 

 

 

 

 

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You create yourself

“You create yourself.period.The same way you create the person who you want to be, you destroy yourself as well. We always have the choice to be content and grateful, and yet we choose to look at that one aspect or situation that is not going too well. Sometimes, we really do become our own worst enemies.Nobody criticises us as much as we do; nobody notices & points out our flaws and chooses to discuss them 24/7 like we do ,nobody hates us as much as we hate ourselves and most of all, nobody can set us free from this mental agony and prison but ourselves.

Why not turn around the game and pour love inside our souls instead? No, that does not make one conceited or stuck up , because self-love and care is very essential for each and every single one of us in order to grow and shine everywhere like stars and quasars.Instead of becoming your very own rivals , you can befriend your soul,heart and mind respectively because that is when you create your most beautiful , invincible self. Being invincible does not mean becoming invisible to the inevitable law of the Universe and the hardships and trials that it brings in order to test us, but  instead it means to allow your sweetness & love to overpower the hate, doubts , hopelessness and the bitterness.

The tools needed for creating yourself are not scarce but in fact abundant, they are only overlooked by many. Things you will need are:  Your heart , mind and your capabilities. See, it is that simple! You have it all since birth. The next step is : use them, silly.

Listen to your heartbeat, the strong movements of the pulsars in your heart indicate you must listen to where the light wants to lead you to, do not be scared. Do not hesitate to let the nebulas diffuse out of your heart and mind, and allow the cosmic colors flowing within you to form a matchless and outstanding piece of art, be it something unrecognizable but art does not have to make sense. Know that the palms of your hand contain the centre of the largest of galaxies, and stars and the bold ink blackness of the outer space drip from your fingertips. Your mind is the most complex thing in the known Universe, and that should be enough to know how powerful you already are, if in case you feel worthless, powerless and as though you lack what it takes to be yourself.

Do not let any of this go waste, and remember it is not too late to use your supplies and create the finest of works nobody has ever seen before. You are that finest work of art, and what you do is one of the components of the entire portrait. Remember, you can always improve, since you are this good now, imagine how much you can change when you begin to work on all this? Also, remember that even the rugged landscapes of different planets and moons are cracked and flawed, but oh so beautiful. Without their flaws, they would not be the same. Their craters, mountains, depressions in the ground, volcanoes and everything else that they embody are so normal, yet so majestic.”

-Samavia.

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In a world full of grey emptiness

“You are a spectrum of bright colors in a world full of grey emptiness. A mosaic work, a rich pastel pattern. You just don’t realise it, sometimes you  overlook the sunshine within you and how the flowers and trees inside you flourish and bloom. Your very quintessence incarnates the beauty and wisdom of the heavens, and your eyes contain the energy of quasars and shine as bright as the center of The Milky Way. Your heart beats rhythmically like pulsars, and the ceaseless thoughts and ideas that pop up in your mind are created like the millions of stars, that are born throughout the inexhaustible Universe. In your blood flow the superclusters of galaxies, and all your Universal components shine with all their might, just for you. Your face and your presence is beautifully unfathomable like a gibbous moon staring up at everyone during a late afternoon.

Your uniqueness is matchless in its own way, because everyone is matchless in their own ways. Amongst the seven billion people, you have your own remarkable attributes which make you a yet another original example of artwork. Everything you touch is beautified, and everything you feel inside is as strong as all the bits and pieces that work together as a ‘team’ and design the Cosmic Web.

Your smile radiates the beams of the Morning sunlight, and strikes the surface of all the greyness that ever existed. Your childish and cheerful laughter melts away the hearts of so many instantaneously, and causes supernovas to form inside their hearts. Wherever you walk by, you leave traces of hope and color, and unknowingly paint other people’s grey phases of life. Hope and faith inside you never dies, it stays around and strives like a dwarf star, surviving for billions of years (that is , till your very last breath in literal life). This is why even during your blackest of days, you can feel a fire ignited inside of you, burning and consuming. It never fades away while you are still breathing. You just never see or fully realise it yourself, because you are in a state of semiconsciousness. You don’t really visualise just how you affect everyone and everything around you. Negativity  runs away with fear the moment you walk in, and yet you say you are powerless. You are the very definition of ecstasy.

Don’t underestimate the interstellar world and fantasies within you, admire them and use them to color a world full of grey emptiness around you. You never know, you might be a reminder of light and aspiration for so many.”

-Samavia.

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Blissful but short-lived spring evenings

“Ah, the springtime is here again, like it should be. The time of the year a lot of us have been waiting for, and will continue to wait for each year. To some, it may not be all that special because it is a season that is going to pass away soon anyway, right?

Truth is, it brings along wonderful momentary blessings that are cherishable in their own unique and distinctive ways.

In case you are free sometime , try sitting outdoors , whether its your yard/porch/garden , or a local park or anywhere where you can see and observe the very essence of spring. Just observe. Observe how everything is just there, show-casing beauty in the oblivion. The sky resembling a pastel artwork , comprising of perfectly but randomly blended colors of red, pink, yellow an orange. It feels like the sky is doing it purposely, just for your aesthetic pleasure and joy. Look at the peach-pink and burning orange clouds, as if they have been set on fire by the Sun itself, and how they are changing shapes miraculously and passing by right in your sight. They remind you of how people , situations , moments that later on become bittersweet memories and life itself changes and goes on and on, bringing about changes every now and then.

See how the new flowers and leaves on the trees are gradually growing, their sprouts and new buds appearing and leaving their typical but outstanding scents everywhere. These scents always cause a ‘deja-vu’ like feeling to form right inside your chest which takes you back to last year’s spring and the spring season before that and vice versa.The fresh new greenery reminds you how beauty emerges from within each and every single one of us after we fight our various battles and obtain scars. Even the birds are filled with glee and are chirping their tiny little hearts out like it is the time of their lives. Their tuneful calls and songs unironically bring so much peace to your mind as the Sun unhurriedly begins to set, causing sky’s colors to intensify and adding a feeling of saudade inside you. This entire scenario is such a great source of solace that you may not want it to end ,ever. If you like, you can also bring along your earphones/headphones and listen to music that is as soothing and in accordance with the mood and surroundings. I prefer and recommend you listening to “Rise to glory” by Earth, a non-lyrical song that allows you to sink inside your contemplation at that very moment. Still, if you prefer not listening to music of any sorts during this moment , that is alright too. Whatever suits you and helps you bring spiritual and mental peace better.

After spending your time in this manner on a blissful spring evening, consider if you could contemplate what you wanted to sort out for a very long time or not.Also, try to consider if you could find peace and virtue or not.”

-Samavia.

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Is it just me?

“Is it just me who looks at or hears something that reminds them of a bittersweet memory from the past, i.e childhood or the ‘good old days’?

You could be in a state of oblivion, or doing anything or nothing at all until your eyes would ‘accidentally’ capture that one moment and fragment that leads to all the other fragments and collection of your memories, making you forget everything about the present and the future for a few moments and let yourself sink into the sudden nostalgia.

It could be your bedroom ceiling that you begin staring at for apparently no reason , but then it brings about certain flashbacks that bring a happy-sad feeling right in your chest. Now, why would your plain-looking ceiling remind you of something that makes you feel so intensely? Well , maybe it ends up reminding you about your childhood when you used to stare up at your ceiling to look at the “glow in the dark” stickers of the Moon and the stars. You see , this is the thing with memories. Even the most unexpected and random things can relate to your previous years of life.

Maybe you randomly look out your window, or glance at it and notice how gracefully the sunlight rays enter the room as though Heaven was shining and calling out for you, and you end up remembering the good ol’ sunny days when you would go to the local park during spring or early summer and play around with friends or have picnics ( when having picnics was actually a thing). Maybe a certain breeze and its fragrance is what takes you back into the past each time, or even the soothing sound of the fan. Spring time always introduces itself  with lovely , aesthetically amazing fragrant flowers. What if flowers have something to do with your past and memories?

Maybe a gloomy , cloudy grey sky or the violent/calm (whichever may please you) blowing of the leaves immediately brings about a memory from the past that you somehow want back, but now all you can do is cherish the moment similar to a ‘deja-vu’ deep inside your soul. Perhaps , the reason why you actually like stargazing is because you have memories attached to the stars that drag you to a past or dead ‘reality’. For all one knows , a person in your life might have been the brightest star in your life but is no longer there , so you like to go and look at the stars just to preserve the tragically beautiful memory inside your heart. Even if that is not the case in your life (i.e , thankfully the person still is there), you  like to look at the stars anyway in case the person is not around your sight or presence for the time being , because to you there is no difference between your beloved person and the brightest stars and star constellations in a silent, pitch black sky. Conceivably , these ‘stars’ are what make your silent nights not so silent. Maybe the bright full Moon giving off its typical light that still leaves you awestricken each time you go out because you always wanted to walk on the surface of the mysterious and somehow distant friend of Earth whom the Earth cannot survive without. You used to think that maybe the crescent Moon really has a nose like in the drawings or cartoons , but now when you think of it each time you cannot help but smile and feel foolish.

To me , there is yet another thing that is funny about memories. I do not know about you , but some of my flashbacks and memories make me question myself whether I will ever be able to achieve or accomplish even the most impossible things that used to and still linger at the back of my head? I can only let my imagination and thoughts wander this way till my last moment , for the repetition of this process is always so tantalizing and fun, and one may never grow tired of it.”

-Samavia.

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The storm

“I have been through a lot in my life up till now

every time things go wrong , a storm appears out of nowhere

and each time the storm returns following another tragedy

it just keeps on getting bigger and bigger

darker and destructive like never before

but somehow, after it is done with its purpose,

it leaves like nothing ever happened

as if the time span in which my entire world fell apart was nothing but a nightmare

like a crime that was never disclosed to the world

the wounds and scars gradually heal

even though my dark old friend keeps visiting when he pleases

However there was only and only one thing I once feared

What if the storm returns?

but then the fear ran away

as I realised that the injuries caused by the viciousness of the storm only make me stronger each time

I began to feel happier than before as the revelation stood right in front of my eyes

and so every time the storm vanishes after its done with seeking its sadistic pleasure

the sun shines upon me

the rays fall over my skin

my eyes twinkle and my smile is just too real

the hope that was crippled once is now much higher than it was before

It has levitated to a higher level and no one can ever bring it down now

I am no longer depressed

I am no ,longer suppressed by my fears and my inner demons

I am finally back to normal, I am powerful

Nothing can steal my shine and will to move towards other galaxies.”

-Samavia.

Note: Hey everyone! Sorry for being so inactive, I have my exams coming up very soon! I’ll try posting as much as I can till Monday. Love you all xx.