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Exemption from your personal hells

When I had nothing to lose, I had everything. When I stopped being who I am, I found myself.”
― Paulo Coelho, Eleven Minutes.

*Note: The following may not be applicable to all people, because everyone has had a different past, that is… a rough past. A rough childhood. Of course, innumerable children deal with a list of problems as any average adult, sad but true.I sincerely apologise if this seems like this is a post containing stereotypical content about being problem-free during your childhood. It isn’t, at least from my side. I don’t mean to offend anyboy. The point is, I have a message to convey. I hope you understand.*

When you were a kid, you didn’t let allow yourself to fall into the enslavement of people-pleasing.

You didn’t analyze or justify yourself in  order to feel validated, you didn’t care if people approved your existence and/or your persona.

You were content just the way you were; you cared about your pet goldfish, or your puppy, or your latest toy, or your candy, or your parents (and the list goes on and on). The point is, you found happiness and joy in every little thing that came across your way.

Most of the times, if you didn’t like something, or someone, you thought to yourself, “To hell with it! I’ll go ride my bike or something” and genuinely moved on, instead of letting it bother you to your very core.

Thing is, you loved yourself. You did what you wanted, you spoke what was on your mind without the fear of being judged, about people’s shallow or petty assumptions, about you being a target of gossiping & hot topics, you didn’t always believe the things told to you by others which were both bad and wrong. You didn’t rely and feed on people’s constant approvals and compliments, though you were certainly appreciative of their kindness. You had your own back, you were more fearless and most of all, free of any regrets, at least the huge ones. Let me demonstrate further: you might’ve regretted not bringing your umbrella to school or a day when it rained cats and dogs, or that you didn’t consider bringing an extra pencil to school because you lost the one you had during the moment in school, and needed to write, but had nothing to write with. However, you didn’t regret BIG things, like compromising things specially valuable to you, jeopardising your present and/or future and letting go of something, someone, an oppurtunity to grow in fears of putting everything else that you had ever known of at risk. The fear of failure itself leads to actual failure. Not being prepared to sacrifice a little, or a lot for something your heart beats fast for, and ending up jeopardising a once-in-a-lifetime chance. Maybe you didn’t go for it because you weren’t sure what others thought of you, and what others would think of you and your newly made decision. Maybe you feared their opinions, and hence allowed them to take over your subconsciousness and subsequently your decisions. Therefore, you just weren’t as sure and clear-minded and thereby filled with doubts. Doubts in yourself. Doubts in your capabilities, your gifts.

Yes, life isn’t a bed or roses or a fairytale land either, where everything is easy peasy lemon squeezy; things are going to get harder and harder and you’ll be tested with trials according to your strength, you just never have to doubt it and think you lack anywhere. Know you are capable of moving about freely to hustle hard and make your dreams come true.


When you stop analyzing yourself, trying to find justification within yourself for every move you make, every breath you take, you find wisdom; when you find wisdom, you find a way towards your soul, and that too flawlessly and effortlessly. When you stop worrying about causing someone else’s displeasure just because you chose to do what you HAD to, you achieve a sense of freedom no one can ever steal from you but yourself. When you realise that nothing ever is truly yours, you let go of the fear of losing anything in the first place. Loss simply is an inevitable, and a lot of times a healthy process of life which you learn to accept sooner or later. When you truly realise that time does not wait for anyone, and that it is short yet ample in amount, you will stop waiting for time to always give you chances, and you will stop fully relying on time to heal your wounds. You’ll have your back just like you did once: through innocence, immaturity, learning & growing, through the phase when you were mostly oblivious to the world and through the times when you began to actually see the world. The rough times, the various confusing times and the exhausting times. When you’ll find out that you really are your own person, your own source of love and strength, that is when  you’ll be able to face, communicate and eventually get along with your personal hells. That is when you’ll be able to convert those hells into something less volatile, less violent and less powerful. You’ll exempt yourself from your personal hells.

-Samavia.

 

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The Sky is the limit, really.

“The enormity of this world and the entire Universe is petrifying

the thought of having to struggle after every step is terrifying

the idea of heartbreak, agony and pain is transfixing

but Dear you, how will you get to taste the sweet nectar of life without the hustle and bustle?

How will you get to touch the stars without learning to fly

and how will you learn to fly when you can’t even crawl- let alone run and jump?

How will you witness the opalescent glow of the pearls right in your palms without diving in deep waters?

How will you ever feel the joy and the rush of adrenaline from skydiving without taking the risk of falling?

How will you ever be fully aware of yourself without any heart and stomach wrenching experiences?

Triumph you see, comes from taking steps you don’t want to take

It comes from leaving behind fears and habits that keep you away from success

but you can’t seek the light and achieve the long-awaited success if you disincline to leave the toxicity behind

After all, the enormity of the world is not something you should run or hide from

it is something you must face with brisk optimism

and feel with every fibre of your body in order to be in contact with it

for the sky really is the limit, and once you seize the heart of the Universe

your fear becomes your dream, and your dream becomes your companion.”

-Samavia.

 

 

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Heavy Heart

“The heart you see, has been designated as the organ of love

and the organ of pain for a reason

Each time you suffer, you feel it in your chest

not only does your entire world quake stormily, but you feel your heart shattering

You can feel each and every crack forming at its very surface, and your soul being careened towards the abyss apace

There is nothing that you can do to stop your soul from fading away deep into the darkness of the night, devoid of any stars to guide you back to the light that you had once known

for you are being eaten away from inside by your frailties and your insecurities

The toxicity of heartache is so often taken for granted, if only they knew the ruinous effects it brought along with it

The world is a ruthless place, bound to leave painful imprints on your heart

Imprints which are woeful but nevertheless quite exquisite too

They are embedded there as a lesson, but they haunt much like a poltergeist

that is why the heart feels heavy, the body and mind exhausted and the soul lost.”

-Samavia.

Note: For those of you who have followed my blog and enjoyed reading my blog, thank you for the support,it helps a lot. Also, sincere apologies due to the fact that I had been inactive for THREE months. Not only had I procrastinated when I did have the time, but I was also dealing with some problems of my own, along with a hectic school routine. Stay blessed, I will keep writing and posting more from now!

 

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Gift

Everybody has his or her own gift(s). It does not always have to be something tremendous and colossal, for there is always a monumental blessing in each kind of gift, even if it is about the size of an atom. Even a simple genuine gesture that can help other people in any shape or form, for example a smile, a shoulder to cry on, or a helping hand may mean the entire Universe to someone, anyone. Someone who is desperately in need of comfort and a true friend, or is simply helpless in a situation and may need someone who can somewhat, and somehow release their burdens to a good extent. That one unconditional action filled with passion can make their black holes that suck out their energy and soul evaporate easily, something they never thought would happen. All thanks to you. Not everybody goes an extra mile for others like you do. Sure, everybody can, but not everybody wills to.

Observe yourself. Give yourself time, be yourself, for being yourself is never a crime or a fault. Accept yourself, pour love into yourself, be honest to yourself and be your very own friend. For that too is a gift, even if it is not necessarily a stereotypical talent that tends to impress a wide range audience, it is a gift you give to yourself. Whether it impresses anyone or not, it surely helps you prosper.And yes, it is a gift that will last and help you for a lifetime, you just have to acknowledge it and truly accept it, deep within the core of your heart. That is when your kindness towards everyone and everything in the world will naturally enhance too. You will become softer, more generous, more genuine,

We all certainly have gifts: infinite blessings, talents, skills, endless creativity (each of our kind(s)), and a noteworthy touch to ourselves. It is not always important to rush for them and find them instantly, and it is absolutely not good to dwell over not being able to figure out what makes you different; we are all gifted tremendously and sometimes it is okay to even just reach out for others: other human beings, animals, plants, any being and/or thing that is benefitted thanks to you. You are not incapable or useless, you are gifted, you just need to give yourself a push when you feel you need to bring change, any kind of change.

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Who am I?

“Who am I really?

What am I, beyond the flesh and bones that veil my inner self?

Why do I want to be somewhere else in time?

What purpose do I serve to this vast unknown dimension filled with countless celestial wonders,

when I am so insignificant and negligible while living inside it?

What does my soul actually look like, when I get lost in my own eyes as I stare deep into the mirror?

Does it consist of freshly blossomed flowers, stars, moonlight, sunshine and everything cheerful and lively?

OR does it consist of storms, earthquakes, volcanic eruptions,tsunamis, destructive black holes and supernovas?

What if it is a paradoxical, baffling combination of heaven & hell, and angels & demons?

Can anybody else see through my eyes and find out the beautifully chaotic mess in me?

This world around me, filled with pastel and cosmic colors, glittery night skies and the blinding sunlight

always reminding me of myself, for I reckon these are all the components of my being,

in some way or another, each in its own mysterious, unexplainable manner

and for life is a journey that leads to an unknown destination, I will explore the true meaning of my existence till I die.”

-Samavia.

 

 

 

 

 

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Lost

“It seems I am comatose in a world so cold, helpless and unable to change my ways

I’m somewhere where the Earth doesn’t move one bit, and the night outstrips the day

Lost deep within the fogs of my blinded mind, deprived of any star unitisations in my empty night sky

Deprived of reason and light, I struggle to find warm shelter, but all I’ve become is ice-cold

Where is the fire I once had lit up inside of me? Where did all the cosmic energy lingering inside my heart ‘vanish’?

Where are the stars that once shone bright for me and lifted up my spirits

, guiding me back home each time?

Why is it so, that the unknown but Divine intervention that once pushed me forward,

is now dragging me back to nothingness?

Why am I so lost?”

-Samavia.

 

 

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My earnest desire

My earnest desire is to be set free. To wander. To explore trillions of the infinite dimensions each with its own features, completely oblivious to mankind. It is my biggest dreams to travel through the skies, the heavens and to touch the stars. I want to feel their heat right from the core of their hearts. I want to know what its like to be on the other side(s). I want to lay down on the surface of the Moon and count the stars with a loved one. I want to set myself free.
But why is it so, that am not I setting myself free? Why am I the one caging myself when I can cross the limits and exceed my expectations? Why is my life like a frozen moment, so motionless where everything feels all the same? It’s not that I can’t set myself free, I can. I’m just not sure what is stopping me. Is it fear? It is doubt? It is both, going hand in hand?

Whatever it is, one day I will overcome all the hurdles that stop me from reaching my cosmic sources of esctasy (my dreams). Most of all, I will overcome the voices in my head that scream negativity and fear of failure. I will defeat a part of me.

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Galactic Reverie

“Let’s  ponder about life together

this way we will get to know things about each other we never imagined would exist

We won’t talk or move, we’ll just look into each other’s eyes for a bit and hold our hands tightly

I’ll feel your cosmic metagalactic energy transmitting from your hand into mine

and then towards my soul and vice versa

that way I’ll be able to figure out what flows in your blood

and what you really are beyond your skin and flesh

Your entire existence consists of the beautiful components of the cosmic web

Your beauty is more than all the countless stars that linger in the coal-black ocean of emptiness

and your loyalty is consistent like all the phases of the Moon

Your love has made every sunrise and sunset more admirable

and your perplexity is like a saturated evening sky

but there is so much more to you that even you don’t know of

The moment I looked deep into your eyes, I discovered only a few of the hidden parts of the Universe out of the endless ones

I can never find everything you behold within you, there’s so much to explore

but I see so many stars ignited inside you, surviving through the endless fire of love and mercy inside you

You are very much like the unexplored oceans and the hidden and unreachable realms of the Universe

No matter how hard one tries to dive deep inside, they will never get enough

Hearing you breathe is just as soothing as the chords of an acoustic guitar

morning walks were never any better,

your energy wreaked havoc inside my Universe, destroyed it and created a newer one

with its own laws and cosmic wonders.”

-Samavia.

 

 

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She was everything: Part 5 (final)

“It was not merely her hair which gently brushed against his face that reminded him of the arms of Milky Way calling him back home

but her voice, as if it were the voice of the Universe

It was not just the twinkle in her eyes that resembled the stars and her deep and thoughtful gaze that reminded him of the silent yet howling moon

but the way the word ‘passion’ oozed out of every outline of her being

The signs of passion in her were many, and each moment he spent with her

he fell deeper and deeper into love with her, as though he was travelling through a wormhole but couldn’t find his way back

It was not an issue for him though, for he knew he was heading home anyway.

What left him speechless each time was the fact that she always made him learn something new

something he thought never existed

something not only about herself but about the very core meaning of life itself.

Many had been smitten for her

but even saying that seems to be an understatement

many were willing to ‘pluck out’ all the stars for her from the sky

but it was this one person who was truly capable of not only calming her storm down

but also capable and truly worthy of her love

He was worthy of all the stars and spiral galaxies in her soul

and all the interstellar clusters rapidly moving inside her

for he had seen within her things that were beyond her cosmical beautiful face

unlike the others, He had seen the entire Universe within this walking, breathing, talking human being

He had seen what others never could, or will.”

-Samavia.

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‘She was everything’: Part 4

“Her heart was like the storm on the surface of Jupiter

Much larger than the Earth itself

It had been violent and overwhelmed for many many years, preferably centuries

but something caused to calm the storm down for once and for all

A very unique phenomenon

as unique and ravishing as the girl herself who was blinded by the folds of her own insecurities

There she was, she met a soul of her own kind

quite miraculously a perfect match for two

He saw every single celestial beauty within the girl, the kind of beauty not many had seen, especially not the girl herself

He would see things in her much more deeper

deep like the edgeless Universe itself

Her entire existence was abundant with beauty

and yet she denied her own treasures all this time

but now, she made herself home in someone’s mind

who could scan and dig deep into the crevices of her being.”

-Samavia.

A little more to come.